Lately, everything sink in my mind. Now i can look back to my life, what really happened to me, Love is sometimes strange, it would always come to where you dont expect it, I had been inlove many times before and it always end me up crying. Because of frustrations, expectations and wishes that never happened, maybe thats why i like to listen to lovesongs. Its like a comfort to me, why did composers write those songs? Its because they also experienced what i felt, and why do singers sing the songs well, because of the emotions and they exert more feelings to it, to give life to the lyrics of the song that leave the listeners breathless plus remembering the moments of happiness, sadness and bliss. I always have opinion in another people's problem, its because everytime someone would tell me a situation, its like ' Id been there' thats why i can easily give advice to them on how should they cope up with it.Sad to say that my life is more on bitterness than happiness, more on loving than me being love, Its me who always give, not thinking of any return at all, and when I love its me who exert all effort to make the relationship work, thats why those boyfriends that i had in the past told me that im just too possessive, well maybe because i dont want to lose them, thats why i become like that. But the saddest moment in my life was when the person i expected to be my husband get married to someone else not me. Maybe it started all there, I learned to know the other side of me. The Julieh that I never thought I would be. Though I can say that im over with it now, but it still leave me pain everytime i remember it, like I always think that maybe this world was so cruel to me.But i learned that everything happened to my life has many reasons and purpose, maybe it moulded me to become the person i am now. It tought me to be strong and not to give up on situations that I thought i could not anymore handle.I experienced crying the whole night, staring in one direction all the time, because I cannot accept that i was being jilted by a lover, in exchange of one of my trusted friends. Frequently my friends are the one who always betrays me. Maybe because my life is an open book to them, I never hide anything to my friends, The julieh they meet the first time will always be the julieh they know forever. Im not the type of person that hide my skeletons in the closet, part of being me is my expressive nature, i do speak whats in my mind, and i always give the best that I ever had in every situation, I am a happy person, Inspite of all the downfull that I had in the past, I dont want to be miserable, thats why i always smile, inspite of the storms that i experienced in my life, I always take time to look happy, Smile has contagious effect, and i know that i have the power to make other people smile too! My only wish in this life is to find someone who would love me for who i am.